About Me

I was born and raised in an Hispanic family in the midwest.  My early childhood consisted of many things to do, but Sundays were meaningful because we attended “misa” or mass at the local Catholic church in town. I remember having to wear those frizzle laced dresses with matching shoes which I just disliked so much. As the eldest, I was expected to be an example to my brothers and sisters and my behavior at church had to be at its best. Oh, and my folks were watching if I donated any of my spare change they gave me that needed to go into the collection basket.  You see I had already gotten caught once and reprimanded for not showing my genorosity to the church. I did not understand why a child should give up their ice cream money to a basket being passed around and who knows if only donating this money at a Sunday mass service would encourage others to give more if they only knew that twenty five cents was a lot for a little kid.  After church, we headed to one of those “All You Can Eat” restaurants and then dessert was hand picked at the local “panaderia” (Mexican bakery). The scent of warm bread baking was an immediate invitation to satisfy any customers choice of what was defined as being “pan dulce” (sweet bread).  These were all just memories that remained of certain traditions my family held on. Growing up as a Catholic meant something, but I did not feel the true understanding of why certain things needed to be done at certain times. Such as, attending baptisims, participating in first communions, having a “quincinera” which is the equivalent of a sweet sixteen. Later in life, I decided to research all of what I thought I understood about being Catholic but I still had gaps. These gaps of understanding were never clarified and I would later turn into a search for a reason to find a different belief system.  This encounter were with the words Muslim and Islam which seemed so foreign and unrecognizable. However, I was determined to find the reason to believe that these words went hand in hand with what they stood for. After extensive research and inquiry, I was convinced that all those years of searching for clarity in one religion did not leave me any hope to hold on to what most Hispanic families practiced-Catholicism. My confusion and misunderstandings were standing in my way to feeling satisfied with religious convictions. At some point, I understood that Islam and Muslims were not a “culture” but a unity of faith that embraced anyone regardless of heritage. The belief system as I begin to get acquainted with was fulfilling and worth recognizing. My life turned the page into a new and exciting feeling of religious satisfaction.  I felt that I had conquered something grand when I decided to associate the words Islam and Muslim as being where I wanted to be. My family thought I was going through an identity crisis. LOL   However, when I opened my eyes I was sure that accepting that which Allah had planned for me was sometning good and it gave me reassurance that converting was the next thing I wanted to identify with. Thus, I began my journey as a Muslim and Islam has never left any gaps in my life. Insh’Allah I pray that my family become Muslim someday.


13 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by kekasihsetia on July 14, 2007 at 10:15 pm

    MashaAllah! Welcome to the fold my dear Sister. I sincerely pray from my heart that Allah keeps you on the Seeratul Mustaqeem. May Islam benefit you and all who come in contact with you in this Dunia and in the Aakhirah. May you be among those who will be raised on the day of Judgement in the state of being pleased and eager to meet their Lord. And among whose who will be under the shade of Allah on the day when there is no other shade. And among those who will drink from our Prophet’s (peace be upon him) precious fountain. And among those who will benefit from His Mercy which is the Supreme Success. AMEEN!

    I’ll let you in on a little secret. I’ve always felt a bit envious (not in a bad way, but I couldn’t find a milder word to describe it) about reverts. Because like Allah said, He wipes their slate clean and it is as though they were new born babies.

    I too pray your family become Muslim someday. Half of my family are Christians so I understand what it’s like sometimes. Islam is a beautiful religion and the only one recognized in the sight of God.


  2. Asalaamu’alaykum, jazaakAllahu khairan. keep up the good work my sister.


  3. Salam and Peace..
    Islam is religion of Taslim, abandon to Allah. I am so happy. You have sensitive sensors to find truth and it is wonderful. I know how much it is difficult when you are the only muslim in your family. I pray in my prayers that your family also get muslims. Wish all bests come to you, best of wisdom, health, maturity, and faith..
    Stay beautiful.. 🙂


  4. Posted by adikbongsu on July 20, 2007 at 8:12 am

    Salam sis,

    Totally agree with kekasihsetia…

    Have always felt that those who converts to Islam, know way better about Islam than us, born to Islam…Masya-Allah…

    May Allah shower us all with Taufiq and Hidayah…Insya-Allah



  5. As Salaamu Alaikum Sis;

    Thanks for coming by. My favorite hadith is as follows;

    Narrated Abu Musa: The Prophet said, “A faithful believer to a faithful believer is like the bricks of a wall, enforcing each other.” While (saying that) the Prophet clasped his hands, by interlacing his fingers. (Bukhari,Book #8, Hadith #468)


  6. Salaams Umm Abdurrahman

    Ma sha Allah. You have a very interesting and worthwhile blog. May Allah bless you in it.

    Abdur Rahman


  7. Assalumu Alaykum Dear sister in Faith,

    One of the main features of the end time according to our Islamic teachings is that the good will be distinct from the evil by their deed and creed. Allah (swt) will pick out His real servent from among His myriad of creatures. Congratulations to you for being a chosen on. I hope we all, either converts or born-Muslims deserve to remain true Muslims to end of this short journey of our worldly trail. Amen!

    By the way, I have a gift for you; a Hadith from our great Prophet whose Bi’that (Prophetic Mission) we honored and celebrated today according to our calenar here in Iran:

    “In the end-time my Umma will face a sever adversity from their tyrannical rulers to the extent that they will be driven to extremities; then Allah will send forth a man from among my household who will fill the earth with equity and justice as it will have been filled with oppression and tyranny. The inhabitants of the earth and the heaven will be pleased with him; the earth will not retain any of its seeds, rather, it will sprout them out; and the heaven will not have any water except that it will pour down. (Al-Durr al-Mansūr 6/58)”


  8. Mashallah! as God wills!

    blessings on your path and may you always remain blessed.


  9. Posted by Amy on November 17, 2007 at 3:27 pm

    Thank you for stopping by my blog! I enjoyed reading about you… it sounds like you’ve had quite an interesting life!


  10. Posted by Aistalavista on January 23, 2008 at 5:21 pm

    Bismillahi Rahmaani Raheem

    Assalamu Alaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakathuhu Sister,

    Welcome to the deen of Ibrahim, Ishaq, Ismail, Musa, Isa, Muhammad (peace be upon all of them).


  11. salam alaikoum Sister,
    may Allah bless you and your family!
    thank you for this wonderful inspiring website, may we be ‘bricks’ one to another…


  12. Posted by samirra on June 14, 2008 at 3:48 pm

    Salaam aleikum!
    I finally came to your blog! I was thinking about you , and came across this link, Mashallah you have done a beautiful job here, and I am going to read through some other things that are written here. I am glad that you have shared you story about growing up Catholic and Hispanic.
    I grew up in the Christian church and found many disparities within the church and its teachings. I cannot say that I haven’t found some disparities with what Islam is and what happens among our communities…
    Thank you for the encouragement(is that a word!?) to write I agreethat it is a a great way to eascape.
    As salaam aleikum Wa ramatullah Wa barikatuh
    Bus to Abderahman


  13. Interesting though the the story be, lacking it is of true passion. Where is the seduction? Where is the pain? Don’t be so insecure.

    – Giacomo de Seingalt



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